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Not Worth It...

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People thought she was good at art
with her drawings she could not part

She would practice and practice until she got it right
but still, in her mind, it was a horrible sight

Her usual days are spent alone
She didn't have an iPod, television, or even a phone

She had no friends and was socially awkward
People would be rude and even mock her

When society took everything that she had
This had made her very sad

For she didn't deserve this, she was never bad
And as the days grew longer, she became more irritable and mad

She cursed and cursed into the sky
She did this for punishment and tried to hide

no-one knew of her constant pain
People who knew her knew that she had nothing to gain

For she was such a sorrowful sight
For herself, she would never fight

She cried, and cried, and cried all day
She knew she could no longer live this way

She hated herself for what she didn't have; good body, good hair, good teeth, good skin….
She knew she could never win…

no matter how hard she had tried
Eventually her heart had begun to die

No hole could be bigger than this
She thought, "What about me could anyone miss?"

Inside of her there was no more hope
She could not be washed like a bar of soap

Who am I? she though as she sat alone, writing
"Nothing", she wrote, as she wouldn't try fighting

The needles stook deeper and deeper in
This was a reminder of her sin

For nothing she could be forgiven
That was the lie that was constantly driven

Depression hit her like a pile of bricks
Words hurt a lot more than a bundle of sticks

Im ugly, I hate myself, I am not thin;
Im not good at anything, I cannot win

The devil said, "You're right! You're right! You are not thin.
You're ugly, You're stupid, but theres a way you can win"

"Look at the pills on the countertop"
"swallow it down with a can of pop"

"Only this way you can have all that you want"
This was his shout. This was his taunt.

"Come on! It will be quick, painless, and freeing!"
"Nobody will care. They will forget what they're seeing"

"You won't have to worry about anything too"
"You won't have people making fun of you"

"It is easy! You will see…
And this time, you won't have to pay a fee!"

She thought about this for a moment or two
What in the world was she going to do?

To get out of being trapped; this is true..
She knew exactly what she needed to do

She took the pills inside of her hand
And crushed them into a pile of sand

She smiled as they went down the drain
No more suffering…. No more pain..


Finding the strength she never though she had
She no longer felt sad or mad

The soap washed away her constant pain
HOPE, she finally, began to gain

The devil suddenly started to fear
Content is all that he could hear

For the damage to him that she did impose,
It grew day by day like a blackened rose

When he hears of her name,
He begins to feel intense pain

She conquered him not by death you see…
She began to say "I believe in me"

If you want to make the devil stumble and fall
Suicide is not the path to go at all

The hard things in life, in which you succeed
Will make you stronger than you could dream

Because if you take the easy way to go…
Your family, will then, forever be suffering and alone…..

So.Please, will you stay today?
Because staying strong is the only way……..
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Legacyhunter's avatar
Dude. Post this in some groups and you will be amaze by the amount of views, faves and comments you will receive. Even I for one can feel these words and its very inspiring. Sad at first, then very surprising in the end that the narrator had lived through these things. Hardly enough I went through these times, but I never thought about pills, just, perhaps, the end of life would have been better. But then the ending came, just wow. It was conveyed beautifully. Even though this is created just last year, I'd like to say, that this is very nicely written. And I feel proud for you :)